Abyss of my own making

By Koa Sinag
This entry is part 2 of 13 in the series Slowly

Drugs or LIFE?

The hardness of this world took hold of me and finally dried up any source of love for Christ. I fell into the same trap, just like many before me. I got myself into the habit of using drugs and alcohol. I was a real fool then; I thought that I could get away with playing with my future. I was so hard-headed that I believed that no matter what I said or did, I would get away with it, but boy, was I wrong. Like any addiction, I grew arrogant and made myself believe that everything was fine, but my life spiraled out of control so quickly. When I finally realized what happened, it was far too late. I was lost and all alone in the abyss of my own making.

Every day, I woke up with a heavy heart, burdened by the weight of my poor choices. The joy and positivity that once radiated from within me were extinguished, replaced by a deep sense of emptiness. I had lost sight of my purpose, and the consequences of my actions haunted me. The road to self-destruction seemed endless, and I was trapped in its vicious cycle.

But in the midst of this darkness, a glimmer of hope emerged. A small voice within me whispered that it wasn’t too late to turn my life around. As I reflected on my past, I realized that my journey—my thinking—had led me astray, but it also taught me valuable lessons. It showed me the depths of human frailty and the destructive power of addiction.


With newfound determination, I embarked on a path of recovery-the renewal of my mind. It wasn’t easy; every step forward was a battle against my own demons. But slowly and steadily, I started making progress. I discovered the strength within me to resist temptation and persevere through the most challenging moments. The power of pray is what kept me going and surely I would not be here today if God haven’t saved me from my destructive nature—my tendency to self destruct.

Maybe this article touched a nerve or you realize how far you have drifted from God – Maybe it is time to come Home – it is time to SURRENDER. If you need help or just want us to pray for you please get hold of us info@koasinag.com

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